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26 November 2018


Letting GO: The Tale of Little Leaf
by Luann Elizabeth Doman
[Based on a true story]


In the yard
by the house
on a street
with a hill
grew a tree
with a lovely little leaf.


The lovely little leaf and its little leaf friends gave shade to a lady bug,
a grasshopper,
and a caterpillar.

One sunny day, that spot of shade grew bigger.
The lady bug,
the grasshopper,
and the caterpillar
noticed the sapphire sky give way to shifty, shadowy clouds, and the scent of rain filled the air.

Three little leaves from the tree fluttered to the ground, and
the lady bug,
the grasshopper,
and the caterpillar
dove for cover.



A storm was coming.

Little leaf waved in the wind and danced to the rock and the roll of the thunder. It smiled to itself because it was young and brave and innocent.




But the twiggy branches that held the leaf started to 
bend and bow  
and curtsy and conga 
as hot summer raindrops jumped and splashed.

One by one, leaf after leaf shook and shimmied and surrendered to the now roaring wind. But the lovely little leaf held on, trembling as the wind pushed it to and fro and pulled it here and there.

“OH MY!” said the lovely leaf. “I MUST HOLD ON!”

The lovely leaf waited and waited for the storm to end, because storms always come to an end, even if it takes forever.


As sure as the summer rains fall, the storm came to an end. When the lady bug, the grasshopper, and the inchworm peeked out from their hiding places, they saw the lovely green leaf still perched atop the baby tree.


But it had changed. It didn’t wave or dance. It held on. Tight.

The little leaf said, “I will never let go. Never, no never!”


Even though the wind was no longer blowing.

Autumn came, and the vibrant greens of summer gave way to the russet shades of fall.

The ladybug flew off,
the grasshopper hopped away,
and the caterpillar became a butterfly.

The little leaf turned yellow, then orange, and still, it held on.

The delicious chill of autumn became chillier yet, and the little leaf turned red. Crimson, in fact.


Some say it was bound to happen. Others said it was embarrassed. But little leaf didn’t care. It refused to leave. “I must hold on! I will not let go! Never, no never! it whispered to no one but itself.

“Oh, little red leaf!” called the wind through the tree. “Come and play, dance with me!”
“Never!” replied little leaf.



Winter came, and a flutter and flurry of flakes began to fall. The little leaf shivered. Its edges curled, its crimson faded, and the slow creep of sepia made its way through the veins of tiny leaf.




Before long, powdery snow began to paint it a crystalline blue and white.

And for the first time in a long time, the little leaf began to dream. What else is out there? Is there more to this life than holding on, refusing to let go? Will I die right here, on this branch, never having seen the world?

Off in the distance a flash of red caught little leaf’s attention. It was a cardinal! 


It whistled, and little leaf turned and twisted and strained and sputtered, trying to get a better glimpse of its brilliance.

And that’s when it happened.

Before it had the chance to be brave, or not be brave, or really even think about it, the little leaf that perched atop the tree
in the yard
by the house
on the street
with a hill 
let go.

Just for a second.

The wind swelled up beneath it.  “Come and play! Dance with me!”

Little leaf turned and tangoed and jumped and jived and swayed and swaggered and boogied and bobbed and bowed and curtsied and waltzed through the yard,

around the house,
down the street,
and up the hill.

It flew so fine and frolicked so fast that even Cardinal could not quite keep up.

The leaf had let go—of its fears and worries—and of the twiggy branch that tethered it to the tree and its dreamless existence.

Nothing would ever be the same.
And that was okay, because little leaf was finally living the adventure it was created for.

THE END



24 September 2015

Again???

Remember last week when I wrote, "We have been reticent to share details about the adoption process lately, because it seems every time we share something, things change."

Yah, that.

So this morning we got a call from our agency at 7:30, the earliest they've ever called. Before I had a chance to say much, she told me that there was another delay.

All these delays were starting to sound suspicious to me, so I probed a little deeper.

Apparently the Federal Court is closed during Rainy Season in Ethio, but one judge stays on the bench to hear very urgent civil cases. But adoption cases are not considered urgent, so normally they are not heard during this season.

This judge, however, took pity on us and our case and agreed to review our appeal. But because it's an adoption case, it's still on the bottom of the priority list.

So today when our lawyer arrived at court, the place was packed, Wall to wall people. The judge started hearing cases and then noticed our lawyer sitting in the courtroom. He paused the case he was hearing and called our lawyer to the front. He said there was no way he'd be able to deal with our case today or tomorrow, and Monday is a holiday, so he would reschedule us for Tuesday the 29th.

Although it's frustrating, this Judge is our best bet. He's known for being pro-adoption, even int'l adoption, and he is very kind and friendly according to what we've heard.

We would have given up long ago if it weren't for three "brown sugars" (as our pastor's wife calls them). Little M, who is 7 and is spunky and talkative and has a smile as big as her face. Older sister M, who is 9 and is quiet and sweet and has eyes that light up the darkest room. And D, our 12 year old soon-to-be-teen, who is handsome, polite, and super smart.

So we hope. And pray.

And we try to learn any lessons that God is teaching us. (Patience? Trust? Surrender?)

And we carry on...because the world keeps spinning and there's still laundry to wash, books to be edited, preschool to attend, code to be written, and meals to be made.

And today we have a birthday party to attend. Our neighbor friend is turning five, and we rejoice with those who rejoice.  And what better way to rejoice than with a Pirate Party?

Thank you for your continued prayers, love, and support.

God's delays ≠ God's denials.